Oh and there was that other woman that had that other disease and they also helped her, so of course they’re going to figure out what’s wrong with me. She knew a woman who had lupus and the University, they figured out what was wrong with her. I’ve told her over and over it was a futile effort and that I’d already been trying for 25 years, but wait. She immediately started in about how she’s going to take me to the University here so they can “figure out what’s wrong with me, as far as my thyroid goes”. How I feel and what I want doesn’t matter at all. Of course, I was really in no mood to leave my house because I was exhausted and dizzy and brain foggy and not interested in going out in the rain and the cold, but my feelings don’t matter. I realize there was no way I could get her to leave me alone and that she would just continue calling me and calling me until I went out to lunch with her. So, of course, she called me again today numerous times. She called me twice but I didn’t answer the phone or call her back. Yesterday when she called, I was half asleep and in no condition to answer the phone, particularly when I looked on the caller ID and saw that it was her. The problem is every time I start to feel like I’m pulled away enough that I can ctb more easily, she calls me up and attempts to pull me back in. I’ve actually had enough time over the last few weeks alone that I’ve been able to start disengaging myself from this world. My worst fear came true yesterday when my SIL called me and wanted to go out to lunch with her. I’m trying to push my way through and find the passage that leads me to ctb and ultimate relief, but I keep getting sidetracked and going in the wrong direction because it’s hard to continue pushing through this quicksand. I feel like I’m walking through a maze of quicksand. The last few days I’ve been having an extremely hard time due to severe exhaustion and brain fog. So right now it’s Friday January 17th about 9:30 at night on the west coast of the United States. So, I thought I’d write a thread in the Notes on my phone and if I ever get a chance to post it, I’ll just paste it on there when I get the chance.
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#Quicksand maze party limit Pc
I’ve loaded and reloaded the site multiple times on my phone, my Kindle, and my PC computer and it’s the same on all of them. I can login, but the box to type dialogue in for a reply or to start a thread is missing. I’ve been trying to post this message all night, but there’s something wrong with the site and I can’t send any replies or start any threads.